a beloved letter to my parents~~

Ahh…why I'm feeling so numb today? Suddenly my mind full of memories with my family…I do miss them so much…

Em..i got a letter this morning…I don’t know whether it is a good news or not…for an army..maybe it is a very honourable  things…so do I ..but only when I first read it...eventually after take a deep think…I have to go through many things after this..i need to leave my beloved parents..UMI…ABAH….they are my life…after this..i need to leave them..far …far away..for a very long distance..and for a few years I will gone from their sight..but why suddenly after the memories reappear..i just feel that..i will gone from their sight forever...why my heart keep thinking of all this???!!!

This is the decision of my life...between life or …….if I go there...my life is just at mouth of the gun…but…this is for my beloved MALAYSIA…this is the army purpose...the Malaysian main bastion…although this is mainly not for Malaysia…but ..for those people who need help…to save their life from terrorist and inhumanity..my parents will be proud of me…yes!!this is it!!!

UMI..ABAH…i had to leave you..to help others…there are many out there that really need me…need me to save their life..need me to be their defender..need me for them to get rid away from the cruel terrorists that may kill them insanely…no humanity…no sincere…no love…JUST KILLING…everyday..we can see a dead body prostrate along the road..the river nowadays is no more crystally clear...not anymore..

Em,..thanks a lot to abah for supporting me to join as an army.. I am really proud of this because I can  fulfill your dream..so do mine..and umi..i will never forget your message..i will keep my promise…and I promise…I will keep it till the end of my life!!!...

Abah ..umi…i miss you…i cannot go home like everyone else…I've got a lot of training here..semester break is not a heaven season for us here..

Sometime feel funny when I reminisce my childhood memories…I'm always followed abah to watched school marching competition.hehehe…and the funny is..i also join them by ridicule them from back..kihkihkih….from this way .. abah has indirectly fostering a deep interest for me to join armed forces…from abah’s story..he said that he want to be an army too..but teacher is his destiny…huhu…

There’s a lot of thing always playing on my mind…but what should I do..this is my destiny too..to leave my beloved family…ALLAH knows everything..maybe this is the best thing for me..everything that ALLAH do..has a thousand reasons…ya!!that's it!!

Umi..abah..for a thousand time..i am sorry if  I am not good enough to be a good son as u want..i am just a normal human that never get away from doing a sin..if this is my last greet for you…I hope..all my sins already been forgiven..

As islam always said..”heaven is under mother’s feet..”..

Umi…Wish me have a good health there,…wish for my longlife..to see both of umi and abah again…I promise!! i will be a better son as every parents wanted..

If my life ends there..i hope umi and abah  take a good care of yourself..i love you soooooo much!!!!!

And my love would never end here..although we are in a different world…my love would be never be apart..

that’s my promise!!

p/s~ a letter to posting me as an official observer for United Nations (UN) peacekeeping missions in Iraq for 3 years...

~2011? new life?~

                       

wa...time is running out!!opss..that one of my friend favourite song by MUSE..haha..hmm..2011? i can't believe it..the most thing i cannot accept is..my age of course!! already 20 ??oh no!!..

well..ending of 2010 is not a very happy ending as in Cinderella and others which always end with happy ending sentenses " happily ever after.."haha..er..sound so childish..kihkih..ending 2020 i need to kill my heart by accepting the injury because of my careless..hihi..because of that injury i was disqualified from participating eco challenge which one out of thousand was chosen..arghhh!!..hmm..maybe this year is not mine..so maybe next year..yeah!!of course 2011..here i come!!!...hehe..

ha!!2011...what i am going to do..??

yea..i remember that i was promise to someone that i will be a good thrifty..hehe..insyaAllah...i will ..and i am trying to do so..next is everyone needed in UPNM...being a killer army..haha.so,.junior will always keep my order..wahaha...so bored..

i can't wait to be a senior..there are many things that i want to do..more money of course..hehe..more power!!ya..ya...that's it!!

i also hope i can score this becoming test and..get 4.0..wau!!..i really dream of it,.. i really need to change..my attitude,my time and my..my ..more..hahaha..so when in graduation day..i will be announce as the best cadet officer..that's amazing..(i am a good dreamer )~but dream can support us to make it real ma..~

pyro.DukE.vAniTY?~

hmm..sometime looks funny..sometime wondering when hear that name...huhu..firstly this name come like lightning in my head as i was a very big fans of X-MEN..waa...kind a tough to hear that for all men ..haha..pyro..that a very powerful man with a fire on him..i wish i would be like that too..hehe..so..wishing being like that was absolutely like 'building castles in the air'..then, i come up with idea to put it into my e-mel name..wahaha..showing i can be power like him too by adding 'duke' after pyro which mean, a highest rank of nobleman..cool ha..hehe..as an army..be the best and the top are everybody's dream..i want it too!!..i trying my harder to beat the rest to be the best among the best in here..so..this 'duke' make my spirit burning as the 'pyro'..another term i was admire the most is the last word..VANITY..well..as an army i need to be a good leader and full with vanity..so i can get the upper hand..i wish i can be an army which people will not get over of me and always solute my lead..

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