shock..shocking day!!!!!!!!!!

today is my 20th birthday .. as usual .. I proceed my daily  life as usual .. but I really  hope 'she' will celebrate my birthday together ..yea..she ..of course!. but I dont think so because I know she is busy for this moment.. we have been far apart only by a sea .. yesterday she told me that today she need to go to Sarawak because her daddy ask her for some work that she really cannot avoid ..thats mean..i really dont have any chance to see her . hmm ...actually i am really disapointed because this is the only chance i can see her....i hope i can release my tension..to express my love to her...well,after this..i need to continue my training in military. but i dont have any choice except i need to wait for more couples of month.. otherwise,I should understand as she always keep her word in order to wait for me every days..we havent contact for 6 month..but she never neglect to send a moral support message for me although i even dont have any time to reply..but she never complain. this is why i do love her sooo much!!

this morning ... i decided to take a walk at my favourite park..so do her..actually this park was introduced by her in our first date .. the park has kept a lot of my memory with her..

all of sudden i was shock by a  physical that seem familiar to me.. I miss that appearance..and i think I knew that physical.. but it cant be her because she already in sarawak just now..ahh ... maybe this is just my hallucination ..

I proceed my walk in the garden until the end..yea..end of the park..which is the most beutiful view i've ever seen. there were a mini waterfall surrounded by many different type of roses..unfortunately,the same physical i saw from the beginning reappear..i was so curious because the body is wearing a baju kurung which is exactly same as i bought for her as a gift for our fourth anniversary .. yes!! her! im really sure!!! now i wont think twice..it's really her!! my eyes never make mistake because i really know her...my heart beat was suddenly uncount as she turn she walk towards me and also the things that she never neglect is her beautiful smile..she always smile..never moody..nobody can really read her as she dont like to show off her problem..even with me.. .. ahh ... what a beautiful ... after 6 month  I did not see her .. apparently .. this is the best birthday present for me!!!...from that smile... all my anxiety. weariness, frustration that make me sucks before sudddenly disappear.... hehehe ..

.. suddenly I heard a rhythm track "Happy Birthday: echo behind me .. ha? there a many people echoing her while sang " Happy Birthday "to me ....what a really suprise!!!.. and she walk along the singers while carrying blackforest cake..which also our favourite cake!!..i miss her !!!
when she was in front of me .. she suddenly pulled out a box of medium size and extend the box in front of me ...

then told me to open the box .. I felt very awkward because I was treated like a woman by her .. huhu ..i dont have any idea to describe my face at that time..my face blushing..of course!!..everybody at the garden was staring at us while giving a big hand..'what a romantic celebration' said the old couple who is also join her sing to me..huhu
 
as I opened the box .i eyes was like a bolt  because the dream seems to be real .. I have the second largest gift in my life after we lost met .. finally after 6 month its over.. ohhhhhhh~~`this is the plan ..going to SARAWAK hah!!..what a good plan.. a pair of NIKE LUNAR Glide shoes that i admired so much in that box!.. no wonder why she always ask me do not buy the shoes ...she want me to save money for future.. huhu .. wa .. these shoes is not a simple shoes..these shoes are very expensive ..this gift is for me for my nest echo challenge because i get injured before..so i really cannot join it .. she spend her money just to satisfy my desire .. wa ............ .... I'm  speechless at that time..and i'm really thank of what she had done to me....


but .. the prize is not la like that a big shocking thing to me.. the most important gift to me is.... her!!  my miss that evergreen to her finally come true as  just staring at her face...her face will never escaped from my mind even though for a seconds...

This is the best surprise that I will never forget for my entire life ..!!!

the FIVE things!~

my life would be suck without them...everyday i will face them..oh my inspiration..hehe...there are my important things..ah..i cannot imagine if they are gone or missing.. or be stolen..how dare they to stole my things! i rather do anything in order to get it back!!!!....huhu..~~

there are my 5 things that i love soooo much!!!..

firstly..

absolutely my handphone..my sony ericsson XPERIA X10..hehe..i can online through it..i can contact my beloved..i can speak with my family ..i can contact with my friends..and many more..handphone is my life..i also can snap pictures whenever i go..whatever i love to see...like nature..all ALLAH creature..

it is also because i bought it with my own money.. we will feel appreciate when we buy it with our own..it was like we can see the money flow out from our wallet..like the waterfall..hehe..

otherwise..it is also my dream handphone..

 since i was in high school..i always dreaming that i can get a great handphone..i felt so jealous when i just can saw other's people can had a great handphone..woo....

 i want it..i want it..hahaha

next!

my lappy la~~

 it was a gift from my mom...of course i will love it..i do my assignment with it..i make this blog with it too!!.how can i forget it..huhu

all my documents was save in it..owh without it ..i cannot do anything..my learning would be sooo worst lah!!

..i searching many info..for my assignment..contact with my friends through facebook..also i already got handphone..but with my lappy(laptop)..it will more awesome..haha..

the third ~

play station 2..!!

oh i love playing game...love it..love it soooo much..

i already got one in my bedroom..everytime i get back to my home..the first thing i do is playing PS2..haha...it can help me to release my tension..forget all my problem with it..

the fourth!

my wallet..although it's already season..huhu..but i love it..it keep my money save and sound..well..sometime kind a shy to keep it..because of the season's look..hehe..but!..my money never stop in it...

the fifth!!!!

my bicycle...

 i use it to muscle up my body...i always exercise using it!!...it make my body tough with it...i saved my money every month to buy it..and finally..i had it!!!! wa... it is a road bike...i always use it if i get into any bike challenge..cool ha!!hehe..

that's all for now..this is just a little bit about my beloved things!..

oh! ,my superb superhero!!

i admire it!! since i was in kindergarten..seriously it is really amazing...it has a extraordinary super and never ever had in other superhero before..at my time..it is a very famous superhero which really admired by kids..the character is..ROBOCOP!!..from it's history..it is formerly detroit police officer ALEX J MURPHY..is a frictional cyborg detroit policeman and protagonist..the character begins as a human being who is killed in the line of duty by a vicious crime gang..subsequently Murphy is transformed into a cyborg entity by the megacorporation Omni Consumer Products..

Since his 1987 film debut, the RoboCop character and franchise have been exercised through numerous entertainment media including multiple television series.comic books. video games and action figures.. RoboCop also made an appearance on WORLD CHAMPION WRESTING's 1990 pay-per-view event CAPITAL COMBAT rescuing wrestler STING from the Four Horsemen by ripping the door off a cage Sting was locked in.

RoboCop's mechanical body is largely a very efficient mobile life support system designed to utilize Alex Murphy's original living tissue.

RoboCop's reconstructured external structure is protected by an armored shell composed oF titaniumlaminated with KEVLAR  making RoboCop incredibly resilient against both bombs and bullets, as well as extreme impacts such as being hit by cars and falling off skyscrapers. In RoboCop and RoboCop 3 the body armor is gray, and in RoboCop 2 the armor is blue.RoboCop's hands, midsection, and neck armor are black. As demonstrated in RoboCop, the body armor can sustain thousands of armor-piercing rounds before damage begins to appear on the armor. It is also highly resistant to heat, as in RoboCop, he was unaffected after being caught in a gasoline station explosion and in RoboCop 3 when he was briefly set aflame..

In RoboCop 2, RoboCop's right arm contained a display that alerted personnel to his health status. RoboCop's hands also contain actuators strong enough to crush every bone in a human hand (about 400 foot pounds). His right hand also contains a spike (referred to by fans as a "dataspike" and by production as the "terminal strip") which is used to retrieve or display data from any computer bank with a corresponding port. At the end of the first film, the jack is also used as a stabbing weapon against the antagonist Clarence Boddicker. RoboCop is extremely strong, able to lift the front of the average car over his head with one arm or resist the crushing effort of a car crusher, as seen in the TV series (episodes 5 and 21, respectively). He was designed to be able "to penetrate virtually any building," and breaks locks with ease...

pretty cool ha..this characters already grab my heart..i really loves this character..

i really cannot describes how much love it..

although there are such many superhero in a movie like superman, spiderman,batman and many more..but it still cannot change my interest toward this character..it has different characters besides all superhero character that already had rite?..every saturday i will sit infront the television to watch the show..i never missed it..hehe..if i did..i will buy a CD..i will feel loosing if i did not watch the show..huhu...in my class in a primary school..me and my friend will gathered to share a story about robocop..about its super..wahhh..really amazing...we never get bored of this...

i also wish someday..i will built with my own robocop..and make it as a replica in my gallery..hehe( keep dreaming)..huhu~~

well..this is it..this is about my interest about my evergreen superhero .. =)

i will go there someday!!

As usual ..all people have their own dreamland ..so do i..hehe..

Everyday before sleep i will lay on my bed while thinking of my dreamland...ahh...so cool..sometimes i felt quite excited when thinking of that..if i can go there...with my beloved ones..everything gonna be so romantic..so happy..so..and so...everything that everyone want i will do it!!! yeah..that's it..

after i grad and work..of course i will go there..and my dreamland is...........PARIS of course!!..the most romantic place to visit!!!..

Paris has all that i need...it's weather..bunch of exciting place.. such as Lafayette galeries..Nother Dame de Paris is the most best place in Paris..i wish i could really see it with my own..waaaaa..................it is a famous for its intricate gothic-style design and for its aesthetic grandeur and harmony. On a first visit, many of the small details are easy to miss...

Notre Dame de Paris FRENCH (for Our Lady of Paris), also known as Notre Dame Cathedral, is a gothic, Catholic cathedral on the eastern half of the Île de la Cité in the fourth arodissement of  Paris, France

Notre Dame de Paris was among the first buildings in the world to use the flying
buttress (arched exterior supports)... i cannot wait to see it real infront on me..by touch it..sense it..ahhh....

 

Notre Dame de Paris

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galeries lafayette

sometimes i feel like i was dreaming in a day..cause who think a young guy like me has a big dream like this..eh..should i care of that??!!..whatever!!..everybody has their own dream..so do i...i wish..i can go there with someone who i love so much..spending time together for the whole day with an exciting thing such as by seeing the most beautiful architecture in the world..as we know..Paris has a very unique design..i am really proud of that.

i always watch the television about Paris..improve my knowledge so if i have the chance to go there ..i will not so shock being there..hehe..at least i am not like a dog searching its bone..huhu..

On the other hand; it's history was calling me to go there...as i know..PHANTOM OF THE OPERA..the best novel that i have ever read from my close friend ..it is full with tragic love.. it is a story about a blind man who really love this girl ..he able to do everything just to be with his beloved including killing..

what a tragic story!!

ahhhhhhhhhh....i wish i really can go there!!!!!!! 

a beloved letter to my parents~~

Ahh…why I'm feeling so numb today? Suddenly my mind full of memories with my family…I do miss them so much…

Em..i got a letter this morning…I don’t know whether it is a good news or not…for an army..maybe it is a very honourable  things…so do I ..but only when I first read it...eventually after take a deep think…I have to go through many things after this..i need to leave my beloved parents..UMI…ABAH….they are my life…after this..i need to leave them..far …far away..for a very long distance..and for a few years I will gone from their sight..but why suddenly after the memories reappear..i just feel that..i will gone from their sight forever...why my heart keep thinking of all this???!!!

This is the decision of my life...between life or …….if I go there...my life is just at mouth of the gun…but…this is for my beloved MALAYSIA…this is the army purpose...the Malaysian main bastion…although this is mainly not for Malaysia…but ..for those people who need help…to save their life from terrorist and inhumanity..my parents will be proud of me…yes!!this is it!!!

UMI..ABAH…i had to leave you..to help others…there are many out there that really need me…need me to save their life..need me to be their defender..need me for them to get rid away from the cruel terrorists that may kill them insanely…no humanity…no sincere…no love…JUST KILLING…everyday..we can see a dead body prostrate along the road..the river nowadays is no more crystally clear...not anymore..

Em,..thanks a lot to abah for supporting me to join as an army.. I am really proud of this because I can  fulfill your dream..so do mine..and umi..i will never forget your message..i will keep my promise…and I promise…I will keep it till the end of my life!!!...

Abah ..umi…i miss you…i cannot go home like everyone else…I've got a lot of training here..semester break is not a heaven season for us here..

Sometime feel funny when I reminisce my childhood memories…I'm always followed abah to watched school marching competition.hehehe…and the funny is..i also join them by ridicule them from back..kihkihkih….from this way .. abah has indirectly fostering a deep interest for me to join armed forces…from abah’s story..he said that he want to be an army too..but teacher is his destiny…huhu…

There’s a lot of thing always playing on my mind…but what should I do..this is my destiny too..to leave my beloved family…ALLAH knows everything..maybe this is the best thing for me..everything that ALLAH do..has a thousand reasons…ya!!that's it!!

Umi..abah..for a thousand time..i am sorry if  I am not good enough to be a good son as u want..i am just a normal human that never get away from doing a sin..if this is my last greet for you…I hope..all my sins already been forgiven..

As islam always said..”heaven is under mother’s feet..”..

Umi…Wish me have a good health there,…wish for my longlife..to see both of umi and abah again…I promise!! i will be a better son as every parents wanted..

If my life ends there..i hope umi and abah  take a good care of yourself..i love you soooooo much!!!!!

And my love would never end here..although we are in a different world…my love would be never be apart..

that’s my promise!!

p/s~ a letter to posting me as an official observer for United Nations (UN) peacekeeping missions in Iraq for 3 years...

~2011? new life?~

                       

wa...time is running out!!opss..that one of my friend favourite song by MUSE..haha..hmm..2011? i can't believe it..the most thing i cannot accept is..my age of course!! already 20 ??oh no!!..

well..ending of 2010 is not a very happy ending as in Cinderella and others which always end with happy ending sentenses " happily ever after.."haha..er..sound so childish..kihkih..ending 2020 i need to kill my heart by accepting the injury because of my careless..hihi..because of that injury i was disqualified from participating eco challenge which one out of thousand was chosen..arghhh!!..hmm..maybe this year is not mine..so maybe next year..yeah!!of course 2011..here i come!!!...hehe..

ha!!2011...what i am going to do..??

yea..i remember that i was promise to someone that i will be a good thrifty..hehe..insyaAllah...i will ..and i am trying to do so..next is everyone needed in UPNM...being a killer army..haha.so,.junior will always keep my order..wahaha...so bored..

i can't wait to be a senior..there are many things that i want to do..more money of course..hehe..more power!!ya..ya...that's it!!

i also hope i can score this becoming test and..get 4.0..wau!!..i really dream of it,.. i really need to change..my attitude,my time and my..my ..more..hahaha..so when in graduation day..i will be announce as the best cadet officer..that's amazing..(i am a good dreamer )~but dream can support us to make it real ma..~

pyro.DukE.vAniTY?~

hmm..sometime looks funny..sometime wondering when hear that name...huhu..firstly this name come like lightning in my head as i was a very big fans of X-MEN..waa...kind a tough to hear that for all men ..haha..pyro..that a very powerful man with a fire on him..i wish i would be like that too..hehe..so..wishing being like that was absolutely like 'building castles in the air'..then, i come up with idea to put it into my e-mel name..wahaha..showing i can be power like him too by adding 'duke' after pyro which mean, a highest rank of nobleman..cool ha..hehe..as an army..be the best and the top are everybody's dream..i want it too!!..i trying my harder to beat the rest to be the best among the best in here..so..this 'duke' make my spirit burning as the 'pyro'..another term i was admire the most is the last word..VANITY..well..as an army i need to be a good leader and full with vanity..so i can get the upper hand..i wish i can be an army which people will not get over of me and always solute my lead..